Refreshed

OK lets see. I'm going to try this blogging thing again. It's a good way to unwind in a construuctive way. I went home for 3 weeks in September to visit the family. Had a great time. I was worried that I may not get back into St. Maarten because im travel and immigration laws but that seemed to have worked out...or is in the process of being worked out. So now I'm back for round two. Ian vs. the Island. I like it here, I really do. Could I live here forever? No. I'm realizing that I have a very curious spirit. It was a surprise to me too. The act of travelling to an unknown land excites me unlike anything I've ever done before, and I don't want to stop here. I'm not concerned with where I will go 'next', because I want to enjoy being here, NOW. So many ppl are so focused on their next step that they dont enjoy where they are at the moment. Planning has its time and its merits, but one must never forget to experience the fullness that is NOW. I've learned to do that on this island on a level on which I've never done before. It is very  true that places like these slow you down...whether you want them to or not...but sometimes it's better to just go with the flow. Since I've been here, Ive been forced to slow don my thinking, and my movements in a way that I thought impossible in my previous surroundings, which is funny since I've never been known to be a quick mover and shaker back home.
I see things differently now. I still don't act on my new perspective as much as I should, but I definitely see things in a larger scope. To put this in words will only sound like a quasi metaphysical explanation of a pseudo spiritual movement, so I will not explain any further. Just let it be known that I am happy, content (and starting to become too content) and loving life more fully that I have 10, 5 or even 2 years ago. I guess that was the point. Is that maturity? Who knows...All I can say is that I have no clue about where I'm going and why, but I'm enjoying the ride and I do not fear the destination. I've made really good friends along the way, whilst reminding myself to remain an independent voyager, NEEDING no one but enjoying the company of those around. This will be a year for positive changes. Things never go according to planned, but as long as you are flexible enough and strong enough, you can get through anything. I hope that is the case because I've put my money on that bet. Once you let go, you realize that there are far more opportunities lying in the midst that you thought were possible by just holding on you whatever way of life you've had; or way of thinking.
Life truly is Good. A cherished part of existence. I can only hope that I hacve the same view when tragedy may hit my life. It's easy to love life when things are good. Can I be as optimistic when the chips are down? Should I even be thinking like this? Who knows. I'll not dwell too long on things I can't control.
Some news updates:
I am one class away from being a rescue diver. Next class is on Sunday. I really enjoy scuba diving. I need to get an underwater camera so I can have some pictures of this beautiful underwater world. It's funny how certain things come so easily to you. It's almost as if these skills were given to you. Easy stuff. Some ppl just can't handly the underwater world of scuba diving...too foreign to them? perhaps...the idea of artificial air, weightlessness...who knows...for me...its a perfect fit. Its how I like to relax. 90 ft below sea level chasing a sea turtle...'floating' on my back staring at the sun through what seems like an eternity of blue water. How many time in your life can you do cartwheels without touching anything,,,and loop-de-loops ...its truly amazing.
Also, amazon is coming out with a color version of the kindle in late november...I want that. We all want things and I want that.
My time in this internet cafe is nearly done, so until next time
Forever Loving JAH
Ian